So this summer is going
to be interesting
It
is the summer of Homecomings and Weddings
And
I dance around my room during the day like a kid at Christmas
Basking
in the radiated joy of my friends
And
at night when I'm all alone I shed my tears
Because
even as I attend the Homecomings and the Weddings
They
will never know their impact on my life
So
here are a few anonymous little letters to those who swell my heart to breaking
To
my longtime friend who is getting married
You’ve
never truly known of my struggle with jealousy of you
I've
admired you and your easy grace when it comes to making friends
It
never came as easily to me
So
I want to thank you for letting me hid in your shadow
And
see a sliver of your world
And
now even though I'm strong enough to not hid in your shadow anymore
I
still yearn for your approval
as I yearn for the lost
ability I had to look at you from across
the room and see a glance and know what you were thinking
you
never knew that you were my best friend
Even
when I wasn't yours
Congratulations
on your engagement. Your pictures are adorable
To
my friend who just got back from the Netherlands
First
of all welcome home
I'm
sorry I'm no good at small talk
And
I'm sorry that I know how your face is going to fall when you find out
That
the bright shining star of our group of friends
Who everyone knows you crushed
on is engaged
Maybe
now you and our friend recently returned from Germany
Can
set aside your swords you drew in her defense
And
shake hands in the peace and friendship this outside observer knew you should
have
You
someone I always wanted to know better
To
be one of those friends your family knows by name
Instead
of the quite shadow of a girl you knew in High School
I
know you’re going to do great things in your life
And
I hope I stay close enough to see you shine
Because
your success gives me an irrational sense of joy
To
my friend who just got back from Germany
I
wish you could see me now
Meet
me now without all the baggage from High School
Without
the knowledge of how close and yet how distant we where
I
never went to your house to hang out
your mother doesn’t know my face and name
I wasn't in your Square
of Trust
I
was the fringe member
An
obligation that came on the coat tails of the girl that wouldn't accept the
title of "your girlfriend"
But
I wish you could see me now with fresh eyes
See
a girl who likes the same things you like
We
could be such good friends
If
it weren't for High School roadblocks that come in the shapes of our mutually
closest friends
And
I hate thinking of how unfair it is that I hold in my heart and soul changes
you made unknowingly
And
I drifted through your life like a breeze leaving no mark
And
despite it all at your Homecoming I will put on my brightest smile and say
"Welcome Home"
And
maybe never see your bright achievements that I know are coming.
To
my friend getting married later this summer
I
hold on to the day we became friends like a precious jewel
Sitting
in the hallway outside our fifth grade classroom
Bonding
over the boy who made us both cry
And
inviting you to my 11th birthday party
We
haven't stayed close
And
that's sad
Because
I admired your strength without resentment
You
were a symbol to me that we all have our challenges
And
no matter how difficult they may appear there is a way to stand up to them
I
wish you all the Happiness I can imagine for someone in life
To
all my other acquaintances getting married or returning home
I
think of you often
I
stalk your Facebook’s
And
smile at your joys
You
do not know how you have shaped me
But
each of your smiles gave me the strength to go to High School
Or
College another day
Your
faces and personalities became second nature to me
They
were a great comfort
I
wish I could pack up all the joy you have given me through the years and give
it back to you tenfold on your darkest days
Congratulations
on all your successes
You
are the people who are going to make the differences in this world
And
I can't wait to see you and all that comes in your futures shine.
