it only take one time

so today started out good as most days do in fact it didn't get bad til about 4:30 when i realized "oh i have a band concert tonight and my hair looks like a birds nest" so i quickly do something with my hair (aka make it look like a semi-desent ponytail) get in my concert clothes and rush to band. in band we practiced on the stage. i hate going on stage i get the most horrid stage fright but i play my songs well. my big mistake was trying to talk to him afterwards. its like talking to a brick of ice.a huge brick of ice i wish i could melt. being frozen out usually doesn't phase me i just keep ploughing though. i talk about everything and nothing with a smile. but today... his ice got to me. i shut up like a clam and read a book til the concert started and we had to play...
there were lights, and people and i kept on missing my notes or skiping mesures. i wanted to melt into the floor and disaper. the thing is i knew these songs i knew i could play them and play them well. but it only takes one off day and when your off day is the day of the final concert of the year...

i want to go home